They Call That A Headline?

[AZRAEL DAVIDE]

Um... no?

Property of Azrael Davide. Get your fucking nose out of here!

[AZRAEL DAVIDE]

15^th of February, 2009

I got a letter today. Like, really? And let's not even talk about what it was. I mean, it wasn't a real letter even. It was a picture. A PICTURE!... OF ME! This, fucking picture:



And scrawled on the back was "Miss your sexy ass. <3 Brian." Uh... no? Sorry Brian. I forgot you after that first awful time we slept together. God I was an idiot to seduce you. You were such a pathetic lay. I was drunk and I knew you weren't amazing. Maybe that's why I forgot you and made the mistake of doing it again a month later. I can be such an idiot. Oh, and Brian... thanks for writing a year and a half later.

Now if Julian had written me... well that'd be a different story. That man had the ass and tongue of a god. Jesus. He knew exactly how to get me off too. Ugh. I wish he were here. But, you know, I couldn't settle down or anything. Even with him.

The guys here are crap, too. Not a single good looking one. Well. That's a lie. There are a few good looking ones but they're all like "waaaaah. I want a relationship." What the fuck is that?! So where does that leave me? Alone with my hand at night. Tons of fun.

The sarcasm is just seeping into the page with that last sentence.

Regardless, I think I'm gonna go attempt to seduce some innocent person. The innocent ones are always so much more fun. They get wild and don't even know they are. Ha. Maybe I'll at least find one... Who am I kidding?

- Azrael

p.s. At least he recognizes that my ass does look amazing in those jeans though.

[AZRAEL DAVIDE]

16^th of February, 2009

And then, just like that, I'm on top of my fucking game again. Take that any way you'd like. I meant it in every way possible. There is this gorgeous piece of ass down the hallway from me. Gay as I am, blond, lean, and just as flighty. I'm going to be working on that for a while. Anything to keep myself entertained and the good times coming (oh yeah. He's a good time).

I wonder how long they can potentially keep me here since I know that I'm probably not going to stop the whole cutting thing any time soon. I mean, there has to be an age where they decide I'm useless, right? I wonder when that age is. I should ask someone when I'm not busy running mind games on people.

Oh! There's another boy. Short and also fucking gorgeous. He's definitely an innocent one looking to drift to the dark side. I'd gladly convert his tight self to my ways. Mmm.

Now look what I've gone and done. My imagination is far too fucking active for me to be writing out the details of my life, clearly. Also, I suppose that's another sign that it's been to long since I've had proper amounts of action in my life. Clearly I'm working on changing that though, now aren't I. Hmm. I'm sure my next entry will be nice and detailed... like they were in high school.

Actually, I could have published my old journal as straight up porn. I totally should have. Hmm. But that's for later, yeah? I have other people on my mind right now.

- Azrael

[AZRAEL DAVIDE]

28^th of February, 2009

It's been a while, I know. I got caught cutting so they locked me down for a few days. Other than that I've been focusing my efforts elsewhere, if you follow. You don't? Good. I'll spell it out for you.

First there's Sebastian. Now, I haven't seen him in about a week, but jesus he's fun. Remember what I said before? Yeah. A full night of just almost getting there and then pulling away. We teased each other like crazy and left some marks. It was an amazing night. I still think about it once in a while. I don't mind not getting any if it's going to lead to pain like that. Most bittersweet thing ever. I'd never start anything serious with him, or anyone, but I get a feeling we're going to get along nicely and possibly be seeing a bit more of each other.

Then there was Chris. He was like... if it was okay to be a pedophile. That sounds... wrong. But I just mean that he appeared so innocent and young at first. But I don't know how many innocent little kids are willing to drag you to the corner of a library and get dirty. So he was kind of two faced. I'll probably go back to that a few times. Even if it's just to get out some sexual frustration Seb leaves me with. I don't mind if that's my back up. Chris looks like he could be fun in the long run. I'd hate having to hurt him, but I don't do gentle. For sex or anything.

And, as if the second half of my month hasn't been great anyway, I got a letter from the bitch I'm supposed to call my mother. Turns out she is rather useful sometimes. She sent my this long detailed letter about how she'd never accept me back after what I did to get myself here and she just found out I was gay. Really mom? Were you that much in denial? God knows I'm not quiet during sex. Maybe you seriously just never heard. Oh well. Apparently she discovered it when she found a few pictures of me and Julian in my room. Good thing she included them in the letter. Now at least I have something attractive in room other than myself. Too bad they're the tame ones. I forget where I hid the explicit ones. Like of him actually working on me. Sometimes I do miss him though. He was an amazing fuck...





I wish they were a little lighter, but I'll live. He's kind of what I picture Sebastian will be like when we finally get around to fucking. Because we will. There's no getting away at this point. I get excited just think about his skill and the way it matches mine. Ugh. I'm done. My imagination works far too well. Maybe I'll go find Seb and we can mess around a bit. That'd be nice. It's only 11.

- Azrael